This has really been the worst week ever.
Today was a horrible day. I took a bath and couldnt get out for 3 hours. I didnt want to face life and for some reason the warm water made me feel better. I had a doctors apt with my OB scheduled and I knew I had to get out of the tub and get ready. I had to go get the car seats from Shane so I could pick them up from daycare when I was done.
I finally got myself ready. I drove to Shanes work. I was starving so I grabbed some McDonalds and was able to get a couple chicken nuggets and sprite down.
I got the car seats and came back home. My mom was waiting at my house for me because she was going to take me to the doctors. I walked into my house and fell over crying so hard. My heart ached, my body ached. I was so scarred but not sure of what. I kept worrying about getting the kids from school and them seeing me like I was and not being able to take care of them because I wasnt sure what was going on with myself.
My mom took me to my OB apt and everything went well. She calmed me down. She knew I didnt want to be on medication because of my reaction to Celexa but she gave me a prescription for Buspar which was an anxiety medication that you take everyday. She told me it would help so I went and got it.
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